sien neh...

wad i had done after i came back from NS...eat...sleep...shit...on9..play maple..the percentage of goin out = 5 %...was trying to find some fren to go out..but just can't lo...so many busy...college de college....working de working...din on9 de din on9..haiz..really feel like i am an useless person now..haha...start missing skol days le..but when form 6 start...will it be the same again??i dun think so..so many fren aso din study liao..lol..really dunno leh...duno got new frens anot leh??lol..make so many new frens in NS...now love to make fren liao...but...i'm walking alone on a lonely road right now...

my maple..

dis is my maple character...a hacked one and a retrain one...lol...

i am so sad...

mom scolded me today and it's all because sis bang the door...yes...she started to feel annoying..and yes...my mom is annoyed...and she can't control herself..saying herself how kelian she is..how suffer she is...everyone is dis family good la...dad went work...sometime din come back for few days...sis can drive herself...if dun happy..den can go out..some more outside got BF sayang...mom leh...when she feel stress...den scold scold scold...she got nth to do but just to scold ppl...how about me???did they think about my feeling??i never felt so sad before...today when i wash toilet..i was thinking...wad am i living for??to make everybody happy??to let ppl scold??until today..i dunno wad am i living for..i dun think i am living for myself...since i was little..when i start to study at tadika..i felt so worried...because i always get no 2 in the class...my mom ask me..why can't i bet the gal and no 1 for her..dat time..she was smiling while asking me..and i din take it serious..until i study primary skol..i still did no get the no 1 for my mom...and when i was standard 1...i remembered..i veli scare of exam de...because everytime when the exam came..i have to study very hard..because mom will write some question for me...and if i dunno how to answer...she will scold me till dead...i really veli scare of exam..and got once..i got 88% for my math...dat time..mom really unhappy..and scold me..from right the way from skol back to hse....right from dinner until bedtime..and yes...i still remember..my dad ask why mom scold me..and my mom say i got 88% for my math...dat time dad was so happy...and say i got good result..why??why??why mom never said dat i am good when i was good???all i remember is...when i got bad result..she will scold me till dead....and when i got good result...i've been scolded..scolded for weeks...for months...sometime even until the next exam...and until the next exam..when i got bad result again...she will take back the previous result and compare wif it...and when i got better result..she din say anything..sometime even get worst...she scolded me...why i oli improve so little...i really have a bad childhood...i really dunno why i live for...to study..to get good result..mom said...a good result is for ur own good..not for mine...but actually...she dunno wad am i thinking...i just wan her to care for me when i got bad result and say : " ah gal arr..dun be too sad for ur result...just study hard next time lo..."i really veli scare whenever we need to give parents sign the result book...becos dad always not here and mom will scold me when she see my result...dat's why..sometime i am the last to handle in the result book...becos i really scare dat my mom will scold...schooling days really make me happy..becos when i'm in the skol..i dun need to think of those unhappy thing..it is weird dat every time when i face my fren..i feel so happy and i will forgot the pain in my heart...serious...i am happy wif my frens...

mom always ask me...why i din tell her how i feel..or tell her wad i wan...becos i noe...if i tell her..she won't agree wif wad i wan...and she will state out a lot reason dat make u feel so unhappy...sometime when i went shopping wif her..i wanna buy something i like...she will like show those unhappy face...or when i wanna go in some shop to see some shirt arr...stationary arr..she will ask me go myself..wad for i ask her out wif me ??just to pay??dat's not wad i wan neh...i wanna let her noe..wad thing i like..my taste..the thing i like....after buying those things..if i din use(because doesn't need to use)she will scold like hell again..there's nth to do but just to scold scold and scold oli...

Maple...

Maple...a game i played for many years..still love it now..love the stupidness of it...the cuteness of it...lovely...although some ppl said dat it is childish..but i still think dat it is hard for me to quit it...feel so sad if i can't play it forever...i've go yu ling's hse to play..haha..and i installed it to my pc without telling my sis...hope dat she'll let me play and not angry la...

Bored~~

nth to do neh...bored bored bored..went to search some picture on net...found some cute one about bored..lol..


beside dat...i went to onion head's website to have a look..so cute..there r some of the icon and some picture...

ThE LasT MeaL In KeM PaYa InDaH

on the 10th of march..the night before we went back...we got the chance..the last chance to eat wif komandan...teachers...wira and wirawati..all together...having the last meal together...the last was great...the food look nice...and we feel so excited after we got the food..cause it look really...really... nice...and after all things is settle...everyone arrive...and we can start our dinner..the time when the fried rice got into my mouth..OMG...it doesn't taste delicious as i thought...it is too salty..but overall..the food is still nice..to prepare meals for so many ppl is hard...we should thanks to the ppl dat cook for us...although it really does not taste good sometime..lol..

the day is getting darker and darker...we found out dat we can't finish the food...and teacher keep adding the fries...the salad for us...lol..i do really feel like vomiting after the meal..becos it is really too much...and when i think back now..i do feel really great...and have fun during PLKN..and if u ask me..do i feel regret for goin it..i will shout it loud and proud.."NOOOOO"..

nth to do..

oh no...nth to do neh...so cham...everyday at home...feel so lonely....make me keep dreaming...keep thinking about someone else...kep doin nth at all...make me feel so useless..dunno wad is goin to happen next time..i miss on9 game so much..but i noe i cannot touch it again...becos senior's advise..never touch those things if i wanna get good result..somemore..if i play again..i will never ever concentrate on studies anymore..so i have to control myself..not to my mind control me...and even though i play back...my ex-on9game frens will never be the same again..and i do not have the same feeling again..last time i play game to make myself get out of bored..yes..i do admit dat games r really fun...lol...but it like dadah..once u take it..it is hard to pull urself out...so..my advise...dun ever touch it..haha...

Sunway Lagoon "trip"..whee....

after so many weeks i came back from NS..i started to miss my fren...we promised to go out to lagoon together...and this gathering finally came....but still...not all attend..nvm..nvm....at least i saw some of my frens...i am happy...^^...

ok...firstly...i am the one and oli one dat reach there in time..all others....r LATE!!hahaha...but...nvm la...i will wait for them..while waiting..i was so nervous...so long din see them liao..dunno wad happen to them leh??hehe..den i waited and waited...

finally...yan and her fren, jing yee(if i've not mistaken) reach..chay jiang and hui lan wif king kong too...our "trip"finally begun...so we walk from the entrance of pyramid shopping center to sunway lagoon...and we almost got lost...haha..all aso dunno how to go sunway lagoon from pyramid..den we follow the instruction...and there....we found it...haha..quite a lot ppl is queueing up to buy tickets..and we found something interesting..dunno is it becos we long time din go there or wad...we found out dat if we r malaysian...we have to use MYcard to buy the ticket...becos it is cheaper...haha...luckily everybody got bring their IC..if not..den die lo...lol..exspecially me...i dun really bring my IC everytime i go out...but dat day..i did brought it...dunno why liao..just feel like bringing it along wif me...haha...

then...we go into sunway lagoon and play after we bought the tickets and the stupid "watch"...we did have a lot of fun..lol..if u ask me to list it out wad we had play...i really can't lo..the most important is..we r having lots of fun...dat's it...

This i promise you - N'sync

well...i love dis song so much..the lyrics is so sweet..love it so much...

here's the lyrics..

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...